Well... They say Odin is akin to a god, but he-- He preys on the weak and the despairing. He fills them with rage and blood-lust until they forget even themselves. That thing has taken everything I've loved from me.
My father died when I was a child, from a wound he received before I was born. One day, several years later, I happened upon what we called Cavernous Maws, and was transported to the past. My parents were still alive, and my father was healthy and happy. I chose to stay in that time because I thought I could save him.
But I was unable, and Atomos, the devourer of time, began to eat the memories of those around me. They were fine, but they didn't remember me. Not even my father. I became distraught, and around the same time a woman named Lilith showed up. She wished for Atomos to devour the future I came from--the Vana'diel that birthed Rishfee and myself--so that her world could live on. And she wished to use my parents to help her.
I couldn't stand by and let her have them. To lose them again... But I lacked the strength and the power. In the end she summoned Odin thanks to the pact she had forged with him in her own time, and my parents chose to go with her. I failed them entirely, as a daughter and a friend, and I gave up. I let Atomos devour me.
I was revived by the one friend I had, and while I was gone I began to truly understand that Lilith was myself. A lonelier me from a harder life who had turned to the only power she could. When I was able, I went to her, and asked her to allow our worlds to exist, side by side. But she'd not hear it. As she lay dying she asked me to take up her place in her world, and I agreed. I took on the burden of her pact with Odin and said goodbye to my world not long before I came here.
But I didn't imagine the pact would hold. It has, though, and now I'm in danger of hurting others. If he takes me the difference between friend and foe won't matter. You'll be just another being that's in his way.
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Date: 2011-07-10 08:25 pm (UTC)My father died when I was a child, from a wound he received before I was born. One day, several years later, I happened upon what we called Cavernous Maws, and was transported to the past. My parents were still alive, and my father was healthy and happy. I chose to stay in that time because I thought I could save him.
But I was unable, and Atomos, the devourer of time, began to eat the memories of those around me. They were fine, but they didn't remember me. Not even my father. I became distraught, and around the same time a woman named Lilith showed up. She wished for Atomos to devour the future I came from--the Vana'diel that birthed Rishfee and myself--so that her world could live on. And she wished to use my parents to help her.
I couldn't stand by and let her have them. To lose them again... But I lacked the strength and the power. In the end she summoned Odin thanks to the pact she had forged with him in her own time, and my parents chose to go with her. I failed them entirely, as a daughter and a friend, and I gave up. I let Atomos devour me.
I was revived by the one friend I had, and while I was gone I began to truly understand that Lilith was myself. A lonelier me from a harder life who had turned to the only power she could. When I was able, I went to her, and asked her to allow our worlds to exist, side by side. But she'd not hear it. As she lay dying she asked me to take up her place in her world, and I agreed. I took on the burden of her pact with Odin and said goodbye to my world not long before I came here.
But I didn't imagine the pact would hold. It has, though, and now I'm in danger of hurting others. If he takes me the difference between friend and foe won't matter. You'll be just another being that's in his way.