[Terra stares downward, silent for a moment. That's a good question. She then looks up, meeting Rinoa's gaze again.]
In some ways, I'm still getting through it. I still have dreams and flashbacks...and there's not much warning for either. I've gotten better with time, but I don't know if that sort of thing will ever really go away...or the guilt. It's easy for people who haven't been controlled to say that it's not our fault, but...some things can't be erased just because of that, you know?
[Pause.]
The way I get through it is with the support of my friends. They know what Kefka did, what he's like, and have accepted me despite my past. That...means far more to me than I can possibly say.
I know I can't change what happened, but at the same time, I won't let it control my present. Not anymore. I'll use my powers, but I'll use them to protect people, and every time I do that, I fight Kefka's words about me. I don't have to be destruction incarnate.
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Date: 2010-09-22 09:47 pm (UTC)In some ways, I'm still getting through it. I still have dreams and flashbacks...and there's not much warning for either. I've gotten better with time, but I don't know if that sort of thing will ever really go away...or the guilt. It's easy for people who haven't been controlled to say that it's not our fault, but...some things can't be erased just because of that, you know?
[Pause.]
The way I get through it is with the support of my friends. They know what Kefka did, what he's like, and have accepted me despite my past. That...means far more to me than I can possibly say.
I know I can't change what happened, but at the same time, I won't let it control my present. Not anymore. I'll use my powers, but I'll use them to protect people, and every time I do that, I fight Kefka's words about me. I don't have to be destruction incarnate.