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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

[Vague apology is going to be vague, but that's how Kain does these things. He'll leave it public partially as an act of penance, partially because he's still readjusting to these devices and their filters. He isn't even sure that all of these people are here- he's been gone from Gaia for only a couple weeks, but to him it feels much, much longer. Don't worry Zidane, when he realizes you're not here, he'll bother you when you arrive.]

Cecil. Squall. Onion Knight. Bartz. Firion. Zidane. I apologize to all of you, especially.

I should also extend that apology to the other warriors of Cosmos as well.

I'm... sorry.

[He's still recovering, but he can't finish this without offering:]

...and if anyone has need for another fighter, I can be there at once.

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...I know. I'm just unsure of how much of this I have any right to tell you about.

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

Kain...whatever concerns the Warriors of Cosmos concerns me, too. If I was there, then it's my right to know, isn't it?

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

If you're certain. [He sighs.] Terra... not everyone always remained on the same side throughout the cycles.

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

They...who do you mean?

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...you were...

[And Tidus that he know of so far. He isn't sure, but he'd be willing to assume there may have been at least one more.]

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

Me?! But--why would I serve Chaos?? I would never--

[...never do so willingly. And then Kain's earlier comment comes to haunt her.]

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry... perhaps I never should have...

[He struggles for something reassuring to say. This is definitely going to make him more cautious and unwilling to tell people too much about the battles, after this.]

...I'm... sorry.

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

Please...what happened? Did I fight you--them?

[Her voice trembles a bit at the end.]

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

...For a short time, but you were soon freed and brought to Cosmos' side.

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You said my mind was freed. Who controlled it? Was it...him?

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

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Yes.

[He hates bearing this news. Especially to someone like Terra, who's been so understanding of his previous actions against her. He also even remembers fighting her in the war, but, he'll spare details for the moment.]

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

[Long silence. She needs to process this.]

...when I was in the Void, he made a comment about how serving Chaos suited me so much better. I thought he was just taunting me, since it's not as though anything he says can be trusted, but....

...he was telling the truth.

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

[Kain is patient. She's been so for him, so he'll return the favor.]

...unfortunately.

But it sounds as if you at least... remained free from him in the cycle that followed?

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

...yes, though....

For a brief time, I was controlled again...but I didn't remember that until Memoria. The boy said it was the Cloud of Darkness' doing. That's why I had to ask....

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For your sake, I wish that had never happened.

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

Me, too. I...especially for the boy's sake. I hurt him badly because of that.

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

I understand, all too well. You didn't deserve to go through that...

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

...who else was there?

[She really needs to think about something else for a bit.]

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

Many of them are here as well. Cecil and the others I initially mentioned... [Pauses a moment before naming off his companions who fell with him.] ...Lightning, Laguna, Yuna, Vaan, Tifa... the Warrior, of course, and ...Jecht... [...For a short time.]

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

Jecht? But...he was summoned to Chaos' side.

[So she thought.]

I...don't remember those people being in the Void, and as far as I know, they don't either. Yet.

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[No wonder they haven't said anything to his apology...]

Nor do any of you... I wonder now if those memories could ever be recovered.

[But whether or not any of them know or recall anything, he feels his need to apologize is important.]

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

Perhaps...?

[Pause.]

No that I think about it, there were a couple of moments of deja vu, but I didn't have the time to dwell on that while we were searching for the crystals.

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[Although he almost hopes she never regains the memories.]

There was never time to dwell in all of those battles.

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[heavenslament.livejournal.com]

Not much, no.

...you still haven't said why you need to apologize.

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[dragoon-rising.livejournal.com]

Because I betrayed them.